Abdallah Mekky

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Abdallah Mekky@AbdallahMekky·Sep 8· 1 min read
This period of my life is not stable at all. Problems in pretty much every corner, and for years now I've been living in survival mode more than anything else — meaning I'm not really living, just trying to get through the day without completely falling apart.

But today I just want to do two things. No more than that. I don't want to fix everything at once, I just want to move one step in the right direction.

I'm trying to reach real stability, and rebuild myself from scratch if that's what it takes. I'm trying to be steady in every part of my life, not just one piece of it. Sports and running are the routine I'm trying to make the anchor that holds everything else together, on top of genuinely paying attention to my health overall — physical, mental, and human — my wellness as a whole.

Today's a messy day, but I'm going to go play football after work in a small five-a-side league. Haven't played in a long time. Not a huge thing in itself, but right now, any return to something I used to love is a win.

I'm trying to get my life back. Trying to reclaim it. And God willing, I'll make it.

#Life #Stability #SurvivalMode #StartingOver

🌊 Unsteady

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Abdallah Mekky@AbdallahMekky·Sep 8· 1 min read
In every long training run there's a moment near the last kilometer where the body has run out of energy but the distance isn't done yet.

That exact moment reminds me that I'm not just coming back to running — I'm coming back to a lot of other things I'd been stalled on for a while. In my head there's a distant dream of one day running all of Egypt, north to south, in stages, and that dream is still at the very beginning of its road — but it exists, and it's what keeps me going even when motivation disappears halfway through.

The idea of "motivation" is overrated. Motivation comes and goes, but the decision you make while calm and focused is what carries you through the moments when there's no motivation left at all. The same applies to other things I'm quietly building these days, not just running.

Today I remembered that lesson again: the long journey is built with small daily steps, not one big leap.

#Reflections #Running #NewBeginnings

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Abdallah Mekky@AbdallahMekky·Sep 8· 1 min read
I think a lot about my bigger dream: running Egypt from north to south, in stages. But today I realized something important — a big dream needs small stations before it happens, and the first station has to be an actual, official race.

I found a race called the "King Sneferu Pyramids Challenge" in Dahshur, 5 or 10k right among Sneferu's own pyramids. Not a huge distance, but the place is deeply symbolic — running next to something thousands of years old while I'm still in my first months of coming back to running.

Choosing a race for its meaning, not just its distance, made the dream feel closer. I won't get to run across all of Egypt if I can't first get through 5 kilometers somewhere worth it.

I'll pick a date, register, and start training more seriously for that race day.

#Running #Dream #KingSneferu #Dahshur

🎯 Goal
Abdallah Mekky@AbdallahMekky·Sep 8· 1 min read
There's a big difference between "I'll run when I can" and "I have a race on such-and-such day."

The first sentence is comfortable, no pressure — if I'm not feeling it today, I just push it back. The second is completely different, because it turns running from a wish into a commitment in front of other people.

And that's exactly what scares me about signing up for an official race. I'm not afraid of the distance, I'm afraid of the idea of announcing a goal and maybe not reaching it. If I run alone and fail, no one knows. If I register for a race and drop out, that's a different story.

But I thought about it again, and realized that fear is exactly the reason I need to register. I don't need an easy commitment, I need one that makes me bigger than the excuses I tell myself every day.

I'll give myself two more weeks to train, then I'll register. I won't wait until I feel completely "ready," because that readiness isn't going to show up until after I've actually signed up.

#Running #Commitment #FacingFear

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